Ani, Coltrane, Etta, Miles and randomness...

Our friends, the music we go to when alone we must be, and silent we cannot handle.

It is interesting, the remedies for sore hearts. Mine seem to turn almost immediately to music, and then wine, perhaps peppered with random hugs and bruising. And then more wine.
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And I remind myself that change is good and highly necessary as catalyst to growth. As is challenge.
And so from conflict can come resolution.
Peace most often is recognized after stormy circumstance, etc. etc.

And even though I am afraid to leave my room (man, i've gotta pee) I realize that ultimately, if it comes down to it, I can pee in my closet.

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But back to the music, it is not entirely the most appropriate for the situation, but I do think that Etta James' "Mystery Lady: Songs of Billie Holiday" is one of the sexiest, most soulful, yearning, and perfect recordings that ever there was.

It might be blasphemous to say, but I think she sings them better than the Lady herself.
Etta sings like real romance and real love are possibilities and that the hurt ain't so bad. In fact, the opposite... what is real love without all the pain and confusion? ( Ok, so I admit that my experiences may help facilitate this conclusion.)

"I don't know why,
but I'm feeling so sad,
I long to try something
I've never had
never had no kissing
oooh, what I've been missing
lover man
oh where can you be?"

And it is not just about lovers. It is not about men, or women... it is about the truth and yearning in her voice.

Its that it doesn't sound like she is singing a song it sounds like she is singing her heart.

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Is it lazy to buy screw top bottles? Or does it just make more sense? Studies show that cork does nothing to add or diminish flavor and is not an sustainable material...

And bad people don't ever know they are bad, say some.

And what is bad? And what is good?

(a feeling, a feeling)
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I had an amazing eggplant dish at Baraka Cafe in Central Square tonight. I've spent some time on epicurious.com and other Tunisian recipe sites with no real luck finding an adequate recipe, though have found some fabulous ideas for veggie dishes.

I'll keep you posted for the themed dinner parties that I hope to someday host...

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I'm returning to Mia tomorrow, the bra eating, sneaker chewing bitch that loves me so fearlessly...